This year has been a health nightmare—the worst I’ve ever faced. Over the past five years, random ailments chipped away at me, but 2025 was when the bottom fell out. Menopause is a beast, y’all, and it’s tested every ounce of my strength. I’ve felt like I’m spiraling, barely holding on.
This morning, at a doctor’s appointment, I was bracing for more bad news when my doctor chirped, “Happy holidays!” I blinked, wondering if she was joking. My brain’s been a foggy mess lately, and for a moment, I questioned if I’d lost track of time and it was already December. It’s still October, right? Or have I missed something?
I think she saw the confusion on my face. “I won’t see you until January,” she explained, “so I’m wishing everyone happy holidays now.” It took a minute, but it clicked. I even laughed—first time in a while. That small moment felt like a nudge from God, reminding me joy can sneak in, even when life feels heavy.
In the midst of my illness this year, a surprise work trip to Kauai in June became my lifeline. It was a gift from God, like Christmas morning in the tropics. I never expected it—a travel writing gig that whisked me to Hawaii’s lush shores, but it was exactly what my soul needed.
Miraculously, my physical struggles eased just enough for me to embrace the island’s breathtaking beauty and rest on its serene beaches. As I sat on the warm sand, each wave felt like God’s gentle whisper, “There’s good even in the hard times.” Whether I’m facing health challenges or nurturing my Indiana garden with my two cats playing among the catnip, I’m learning to trust His perfect timing. Even in pain, He weaves moments of grace.
Life’s a wild, beautiful mess. That “Happy holidays!” and Kauai’s healing pause were sparks, reminding me to look for light in the chaos. I’m still here, still fighting, still finding faith. What’s a moment that gave you hope this year? Share in the comments—I’d love to hear your story.
Blessings,
Stacey ~ I Am Alive