Give Me Faith

I had another one of those moments today…one of those ah-ha moments. I look forward to church every Sunday…it’s my favorite hour of the day. And typically I can relate to the message. But today was one of those days where I felt like the entire service was meant for ME. From the worship music, to the testimony given by one of the worship leaders, to the message given by our pastor.

I’m always grateful for those days. It’s kind of like a kick in the butt waking me up from a deep sleep. Sometimes I get so caught up in the stresses of my daily life and become overly agitated, frustrated, negative, tired, depressed, hopeless, weak etc. I felt all of those emotions last week at work and I actually said out loud to one of my co-workers “I hate this job!” It felt like everything was wrong. I just wanted to leave on more than one occasion. I had enough. I fought through to Friday though and survived my little mental, emotional and physical breakdown. I’ve not thought about work all weekend.

As I listened to this beautiful angel on stage at church speak in between songs about her personal struggles, all of my emotions from the week before came flooding back. She made me realize I was not alone. Everyone is struggling with something. We are all a bit broken in places. We are human and we are weak. But God’s love will never fail us. Our strength is renewed through faith in Him. I KNOW I’m going to be okay no matter what life throws at me. Many things are beyond my control and that’s just part of being alive. It is okay to have a bad day or a bad week or a bad season. During those times we learn and grow. And all through it…He is there quietly watching over us to catch us when we fall.

I’ve been on a spiritual journey of healing and transformation for almost two years now. I’m so much stronger now than I ever imagined possible. I’m finally finding the person that God intended me to be and I’m SO GRATEFUL. I’ve been blessed to have found my calling in life and I feel a sense of purpose and belonging that I’ve never felt before in my entire life. I have more friends now (good and true friends) than I’ve ever had. And I KNOW how blessed I am. I’m thankful for all of the struggles and lessons and wrong choices I’ve made because they brought me to this place. A place where my hearts desire is to give and to serve in a way where I cannot be repaid. It’s my duty to help inspire and encourage others so that they know they are not alone.

I’m not always miss positivity though. I have negative thoughts and bad days and I “hate my job” sometimes. But in the grand scheme of things those days don’t amount to much of anything. Life will ALWAYS dish out yucky things beyond our control. But having that faith that God will never fail me makes everything okay no matter what. I’m on the other side now and I realize that I can turn the negatives into positives and help others in the process. How amazing is that?!? So can you if you make the choice. You might not desire to tweet hundreds of positive quotes every week or write about your personal struggles publicly as I do, but you might find a different outlet to help out and do your part. We all have unique gifts and talents…let’s use them in a positive way. Believe me, everyone wins. As my pastor said today “Humility is the noble choice to use your power in the service of others.”


Stacey ~ iamalive

“I may be weak but your spirits strong in me…My flesh may fail but my God you never will.”


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