So, yesterday I explained that I would be writing here every day in November. It is now 9:30pm and I am just now sitting down to start my second post for the month. I could easily just turn on the TV (I actually have it plugged in now) or I could just go to bed. I do have to get up at 5:30am tomorrow.
But I should at least try…I did type 1,000 words yesterday about how I was going to attempt to write myself out of this funk and make the last two months of this year amazing. I just looked through my emails from today and read one from one of my readers/friends. He told me he is with me on this refocusing thing and he is going to hold me accountable. He related to my post yesterday and also wants to make the last two months of 2017 the best two months. I appreciated this message so much because it does help to not do it alone! I will be checking in on him as well.
The thing about having a relationship with God is that we have a choice. From what I have experienced and seen through others, God sets us up to follow Him then we must make the choice to follow. I didn’t DECIDE to follow until my life was messed up and I was barely hanging on to hope. I made a conscious choice for a couple of years after that but this year I have slacked off. I blame it on my schedule and being tired but I know there is more to it. I’ve become lazy and reverted back to some of my selfish ways…then I wonder, “Why do I feel so negative?”
The easy thing to do is to blame my circumstances and become all wrapped up in myself again instead of choosing the hard option…because following God is HARD. But it is the better option. SO MUCH BETTER! And the wonderful thing about all of this is that if I slack off and become spiritually numb again…he will set me up every time so that I need to depend on Him. I can choose to follow or I can keep banging my head on the wall and walking in circles. It is up to me. The reward if I choose the right option leads to so many things. Today I am choosing joy.
Blessings,
Stacey ~ iamalive
(The attached photo showed up on my Facebook today as a memory I shared a year ago. I took a picture of a beautiful sunrise with my iPhone that morning while I was working at the farm. I had a broken finger at that time and I was harvesting vegetables while wearing a splint. My hands were constantly wet, cold, and dirty and I was still in pain. Not the most comfortable situation but I have never been happier. It was a simple moment that I captured (but amazing…God was showing off!) but I remember how I felt that morning…choosing to find joy in my surroundings regardless of my circumstances).