Psalm 142 A “maskil” of David. When he was in the cave. A prayer.
1 I cry aloud to the LORD; I lift up my voice to the LORD for mercy. 2 I pour out my complaint before him; before him I tell my trouble. 3 When my spirit grows faint within me, it is you who know my way. In the path where I walk men have hidden a snare for me. 4 Look to my right and see; no one is concerned for me. I have no refuge; no one cares for my life. 5 I cry to you, O LORD; I say, “You are my refuge, my portion in the land of the living.” 6 Listen to my cry, for I am in desperate need; rescue me from those who pursue me, for they are too strong for me. 7 Set me free from my prison, that I may praise your name. Then the righteous will gather about me because of your goodness to me.
I seem to be spending a lot of time in Laundromats lately. It’s actually a bit of a relaxing place where I can sit down for an hour and a half and read a book or write a blog. Or just think. Or not think. It’s a place I never spent much time until a couple years ago. I always had a washer and dryer in my home and I realize now how much I took that for granted. Now that I’m aware of how easy my life used to be…I often ask God “How long are You going to leave me in this place? I’ve learned a lot of lessons…can I just move on with my life now?”
God doesn’t always answer when we want Him to.
My friend sent me the link to a sermon Sunday morning. It was one of those messages where you say, “That was meant for me!” It spoke to me loud and clear. I’m not going to post the video here but if you are feeling stuck as I am, I encourage you to search “In Between Places” by TD Jakes on YouTube published 9/6/14.
Jakes talked about how when you’re feeling “in between places” you need to find the strength to “birth again.” To me that means to truly live again and stop dwelling on your past and the things holding you back. Everything you have to move forward with your life is already inside you. It’s called instinct. The problem is having the courage to follow it.
I do have those instincts inside me. I’m gaining more courage and strength to move forward every day. It’s all about faith and trusting God’s plan for my life, fully.
I’m not exactly stuck in a cave crying out to God like David. I’m just stuck between the wash and rinse cycle… preparing to dry off and continue walking.
I’m so grateful for second chances. I’m so grateful that I finally know what it means to LIVE.
Thank You God for giving me the strength to birth again! I trust Your plan for my life and the instincts You have instilled in me. In Jesus’ name, Amen
Blessings,
Stacey ~ iamalive