“Every time a bell rings an angel gets its wings.” ~ Zuzu Bailey
That is my favorite line from the ending of my all time favorite Christmas movie; It’s a Wonderful Life. It is a story of a man who gets a glimpse of what the world would have been like if he had never been born. Down on his luck, George Bailey almost ended his life by jumping off of a bridge but instead he rescued his guardian angel, Clarence who in turn saves his life. Most of you have seen it I am sure but if you haven’t please do so! It puts everything into perspective…what is important and what is not. It makes you realize that there is a purpose for the ups and downs of life.
I had a job interview back in November (I think…it has been a while and my memory is horrible lately). I received the voicemail yesterday “We are sorry but we chose a different candidate…best of luck in your job search.”
I have been lackadaisically job searching off and on for a long time. My desire to write and follow this path of inspiring others through sharing my story is keeping me from getting too serious about searching in the field I have worked in for the last 18 years. I am just plain tired of being a “lab rat.” Other things are calling me. But I have to pay my bills. I have to feed my cats. They will be unhappy with me if their bowls are empty. But do I have the courage to take the steps to follow my dreams? I could make money from it if I get serious about it. Or will I remain working in a field that pays the bills and gives me a feeling of security but doesn’t bring joy to my heart?
It is totally up to me. All I know for sure is that when a door does not open it is not my door. Are the closed doors God’s ways of telling me to step out in faith and truly follow my Him?
Another door closed on me very recently. My second divorce was finalized in October 2013 but we still owned a piece of property together and have been making monthly payments since. The travel trailer we bought three months before we separated and were LIVING in when he packed up and left was FINALLY sold. PRAISE THE LORD! It has been a dark cloud over my head and I have prayed for the right person to come along and ride off into the sunset with it so I never have to think about it again. Sometimes it felt like it would never happen. We were both making our part of the payment and we were both growing weary of throwing money down the toilet. Well…out of the blue last month the RIGHT PERSON did come along. She was my early Christmas present. Rather, she was my angel. And she and her hubby rode off into the sunset in it…or to a NASCAR race or to wherever they like to go camp. And now I have no payment and no reason at all to deal with my ex for anything anymore. EVER.
When I received the final payment notice in the mail I texted him to let him know he could cancel the insurance on it. His response back to me was a thumbs up emoji. And with that…the book was closed on four years of history with someone who at one point in my life I thought would be in my life forever. That person is now a complete stranger, again.
Trailer gone. Door closed.
I had dinner last night with my sweet friend who invited me to her apartment. I introduced her to salmon patties and she introduced me to her cute new betta fish that her two cats admire a lot too. Somehow one of the cats dipped his tail in a scented bowl of hot candle wax while he was trying to look at the fish. In the midst of the drama and laughter while cutting wax out of her cats hair for a couple of hours I didn’t even think to tell her about my job rejection call earlier that day. In the past I would have been depressed from the rejection and worrying about what to do next and it more than likely would have been the first thing discussed. The fact that I just let it go and didn’t think much about it even though it would have been a very good job…. tells me my faith in God is growing stronger.
I know there will be other jobs. There will be a RIGHT job. I know there will be a RIGHT man eventually too, when I am ready. Rejection is simply God’s way of pointing us in the right direction. For now I am counting my blessings and thanking Him for looking out for me. He has my back no matter what. And I do believe there are angels here on earth looking out for us too. God works through others for our good. And to that all I have to say is THUMBS UP!
IT IS A WONDERFUL LIFE!!!
Blessings,
Stacey ~ iamalive