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John 8:12 Jesus spoke to the people once more and said, “I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won’t have to walk in darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life.”

Someone gave me a suggestion recently about my writing when I was feeling stuck…”write where you are at.” This is where I am at today.

I had a very peaceful Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. I worked on Christmas Eve then spent the evening with my Aunt and Uncle and their family (my moms side). Today I slept a little later than usual. I took my time getting ready, loaded up my car and made the 45-minute drive to the nursing home in KY to spend the day with my dad. We had a very good lunch then opened gifts and took a long nap. After watching a Christmas Story for about the 15th time I decided to come home. My kitties were waiting for me. But first I stopped for some Chinese take out. I was happy they remembered to put a fortune cookie in the box. I know, I know…as a Christian I am not supposed to believe in fortunes or astrology but I cannot say that I don’t relate to some of it. There’s a lot of astrological information in the Bible. The controversy is over the interpretation of it as with most anything. My sign is Aries and I fit the description if you Google it like I wrote it myself. Even the impatient, quick-tempered, naïve, self centered, rash, childish and blundering parts. The upside is that I am courageous, frank, enthusiastic, dynamic, bold, warm, impulsive, adventurous, and intrepid!!! (I like those traits especially when I am confident in myself enough to believe they are true).

As far as fortunes go, I know my future now. I have an eternal life ahead of me in Heaven. I am not sweating much anymore because of that. But I do enjoy when I crack open the little cookie and it seems to have been one meant for me…”right where I am at. “

“First they ignore you, then they attack you, then you win.”

I have had a lot of problems with people and being accepted and supported. I start thinking me, me, and me and feel ignored and isolated. I feel SO ALONE a lot of the time. “Best friends” who know I am alone don’t even bother to check on me. I hear next to nothing from family. When I WAKE UP and realize that these are all LIES and stop feeling sorry for myself the light WINS. I backslide but I am stronger this year than I have ever been in my entire life. I am joyfully celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ this Christmas because that my dear friends is what Christmas is about. It is NOT about ME. It is about the birth of Christ as well as His second birth when I (and each one of you) decided to become His disciple. He is living in me and His light is shining through me. That is the best Christmas gift I could ever receive!

I look for God in everything, everywhere. Sometimes I find Him in a fortune cookie. A reminder that Jesus is the light and by following him I will never have to walk in darkness ever again. People and negative outside influences don’t mean anything in the grand scheme of things. Some are distractions sent by the devil for the sole purpose of keeping me in the darkness. I am not afraid of the dark anymore. And I win no matter what. The truth and the light always win. 🌟

Blessings and a joyous and Merry Christmas!

Stacey ~ iamalive

 

 

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