Hello 🙂
First of all I wanted to pass on that my Twitter account has been temporarily suspended. Â I should be back on again within 48 hours. Â I either followed too many people or I tweeted too much…so I am temporarily grounded!
I think about what I want to write about in my blog everyday.  I have soooo many things swimming around up there that sometimes it is too overwhelming so I do not write until I have an “ah ha” moment.  Well, I had one of those this evening 🙂 I went to visit my therapist Dr. Janet.  I have been going to talk to her off and on since spring 2008 after my first divorce.  She has seen me at rock bottom, on top of a mountain and at all points in between.  Today was my first visit back since fall 2012.  I am not depressed.  I do not really feel the need for therapy.  I think I went to talk to her today to verbalize what I had been feeling on the inside…that I had made it through.  To possibly give myself closure on my past. To explain out loud that I have finally figured out some things about myself that I have been puzzled by for YEARS.
Last year (2013) was a transformation year for me. Â I think I finally realized what I am made of and I truly feel like I was reborn as a result of this realization. Â I went through the most difficult break up in my entire life…my second divorce. Â I did it without therapy. Â I did it on my own and in a good healthy way. Â I have turned so many negative things into positives that it totally blows my mind. Â My faith in GOD has led me to where I am today and I am forever thankful for forcing myself to go back to church at a very difficult time in my life. Â I started working out. Â I started spending more time with friends. I started taking care of my own needs again. Â I left a very negative work situation not knowing if or when I would find another job and thankfully I found a very good job within a very short time. Â I just feel like I have been through enough “stuff” in my life that I finally see the BIG PICTURE now. Â I have come full circle. Â I may have taken the looooooooong route to get here but I made it and I appreciate everything that much more. Â I left my appointment today crying happy tears and realizing that yes, I am going to be ok. Â I am soooo strong now…it is an amazing feeling.
In the past I struggled with the fact that I thought I needed a man in my life in order to be happy but I realize now that is not the case.  I am happy with who I am on the inside and out.  And it is ok to just be with ME. I am a college graduate.  I have owned two homes so far in my life.  I have held very good jobs since graduating college.  I have been capable of taking care of myself all along.  I have a deep love for animals.  I care about the environment and the future of the planet.  I just enjoy nature and this beautiful planet that we are so lucky to live on.  I have an enormous soft spot for elderly people.  I have a passion for travel and adventure.  I have an obsession with music.  I have a soft heart which I get from both of my parents.  I have a passion for writing.  I have a passion for inspiring others.  I have so many positive things in my life that have always been there but my eyes were closed and I couldn’t see them.  My eyes are wide open now! I do not know where my journey is taking me but I am excited for the ride…it is SO good to be alive!  🙂
Thank you for reading my messages. Â If you have found my page I greatly thank you for taking the time to check in on me. I hope that you may have found something that you can relate to and I hope that you have a blessed day!
xo Stacey