I have had a little dilemma in my head for a week or so regarding my current work situation. I was asked to help train an employee to do part of my job. Normally that would not be an issue for me…I have trained many people at previous jobs in the past. But currently, I am employed by a temporary agency by my company. As a “temp” I do not receive benefits or the same pay as full-time employees. My dilemma was that I was asked to train a full time employee who actually beat me out of the job. I thought about it a lot. I struggled with it. It didn’t seem right. I REALLY like my co-worker and I want to be helpful. But then there is the part of me that is bothered by this situation.
Over the weekend I was thinking about this dilemma and it dawned on me that I have been in a VERY similar situation in the past…except the tables were turned. I was hired by a company to be the Quality Lab Coordinator. I was excited about my new position. But once I arrived I found out that I had been chosen for this position above someone who already worked for the company and had applied within….and now it was his responsibility to train ME. I felt his animosity. He did teach me what I needed to know but it always felt like it was in a condescending manner. He made it clear to other employees that he really wanted the job and felt he was qualified and was not shy about letting everyone know he wasn’t happy about it. It wasn’t my fault…but now I do understand how he felt.
The sermon at church on 2/1 touched on this very subject and after reading through my notes I realized that my feelings were very selfish. I have made it clear to most people who know me that I am not truly happy with my job situation. It is a means to pay my bills but I feel that I am called to do something greater with my life. BUT. I sometimes forget to remember that no matter what job I am doing…I am working for GOD, not a man or some company. Therefore it is my responsibility to do the best job I can possibly do. If that means training someone who beat me out of a job so be it. It is God’s plan for me at this moment and I will do what I am asked. And with that said, I am comforted knowing that I didn’t get that job because I KNOW HE has a greater plan for me and my life. He has a plan for me that I cannot see right now but I trust it and I am accepting it.
God sometimes takes things away that we think we want and ends up replacing them with something so much better. For me in my life right now…the things that have been taken away me…my marriage, home, financial stability, permanent job…etc. have all been replaced by HIM. And because of that I am happier and more grateful for EVERYTHING I do have than I have ever been in my entire life. I was blind before my wake up call almost 2 years ago now. I was just going through the motions and not enjoying the little things. I took so much for granted and I was always looking for the next thing to look forward to that would make me happy. But now, I am happy about everything!!! My best friends might argue 😉 but they know my heart. I am truly blessed.
I hope that if you are reading this and you are struggling with something similar…know that you are not alone. And know that God has a greater plan for your life. Just trust it! It is well…
Stacey ~ iamalive