I have wondered about this a lot over the last couple of years. It is not that I don’t want to “bring certain people.” But as my faith grows, people have come in and out of my life and dropped like flies. And then there are the friends from my past who are polite but for the most part keep quiet and don’t really seem to care whatsoever. The ones who seem to be sticking around are on similar journeys as me, growing in their faith as well.
But to be honest, none of that is (or should be) my concern. I am not preoccupied with my mistakes from my past anymore. I am not bitter towards people who hurt me. I have forgiven myself for not being perfect and hurting others because of my selfish ways of yesterday. My concern is following the course I am on now and only looking forward. When I worry about what my friends are thinking or what I might be missing out on by going deeper into my relationship with God, I get side tracked and lose focus on my purpose. I don’t want to do that. I have waited far to long to find my purpose! Seriously. It seems like everything happens to me later than most people I know. That is probably due to the fact that I am the most stubborn, prideful person I know! Or at least I used to be. I DID miss out on things God had to offer because I was off course blazing my own trail walking in my self-loathing, self-righteousness. It amazes me how my outlook on EVERYTHING has changed since I decided to truly be all in. It is all about courage, overcoming fear of failure, and living with full abandon for God. Walking by faith is a heck of a lot easier than trying to do it all on my own. What a relief.
John 3:16 “For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” Amen
That is my focus. Which direction are you headed?
Blessings,
Stacey ~ iamalive