Does this ever happen to you? You are thinking of someone you haven’t talked to or heard from for a long time and then they email, call, or text you?
I was thinking of someone this evening and he texted me shortly after. I told him he had been on my mind and his reply was, “God.” I agreed. Some things need no more explanation.
My life on the outside probably looks like a big old mess to a lot of people. I am still unemployed. I have this crazy dream of writing a book. I spend my time doing things my friends don’t relate to. I ENJOY blogging, tweeting, sharing inspiration, and connecting with others online. Sometimes I scroll Instagram and I just smile because usually the same group of people are always on and I could “like” every single post. And sometimes I do. We are all there sharing our lives and just there for each other. It is a happy, comfortable place where friendships have been formed. One of those friends texted to check on me today while I was drinking coffee. And he was drinking coffee. It seems many of us drink a lot of coffee! 😉
Maybe I am drawn to the social media stuff because I do not have a lot of family here with me. My dad as most of you know is in a nursing home about 45 minutes from me and I see him usually once a week. Not working, I don’t have much human contact. I have a handful of friends but do not see them often because they are mostly all married or in relationships. I look forward to church and Sunday lunch visits with my dad. But on the in between days I feel alone. I was feeling that way tonight. Then I received that text from an old friend. He asked me if I would like to join a prayer group. God told me before he even texted me that I was going to be in contact with this person. Or maybe God reached out to my friend to let him know I needed prayer.
I don’t know how it all works I just KNOW it was not a coincidence that he was on my mind. And I KNOW this season He has me in right now is to teach me some things. I was dependent on my parents from birth through my early 20’s and men in my life up until age 41. I have never been this ALONE before in my entire life for as long as I have been in this season I’m in now. God wants me to learn how to handle things by myself instead of living for everyone else and depending on others for my worth. He wants me to live for Him. And through this process I am discovering my identity again. I am discovering what I want and need in order to take care of me instead of placing my dreams and desires on the back burner. It feels like I am having a growth spurt at 43 years old (I can still say 43 for a few more days) and still becoming the woman He intended me to be. That’s actually pretty cool.
There is ALWAYS time to improve yourself and your life. You are NOT stuck. And you are NEVER alone. God reminded me of that tonight. He is amazing.
Blessings,
Stacey ~ iamalive
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