“It’s okay Mom, not everyone is gonna believe. That’s alright. They’ll get there when they get there.” Anna Beam (From the movie Miracles From Heaven)
I am a post it note girl. In other words, I have lists and reminders for EVERYTHING. I cannot function without little reminders because I’m forgetful and I need structure in order to complete tasks. I know I need to pay my monthly bills but I keep a running list of them. I know I need to write a blog post, yet I still write it on a post it. I know I need to call the two people back who left me voice messages last week, and yes, I wrote it down. A guy I used to work with called me the “Post It Note Queen.” I gladly wear that crown otherwise I will never get anything done.
There are times when some of the things on my lists still don’t get done though. Do you ever try to send an email or look up a website and your browser just hangs or the email just won’t send? This happens to me frequently. I can chalk it up to having a slow Internet service or an ancient computer, or I can pause for a moment and think…”Does God not want me to send this message?” I don’t really believe in coincidences much anymore. In the past though, I didn’t always listen for those little pauses or signs not to proceed with my plans.
I saw the movie Miracles From Heaven last week with my friend. I forgot to grab Kleenexes before it started although I heard it was a tearjerker. Indeed it was. I am not going to explain the plot but there was an underlying story of losing faith in God. It ended well and faith was restored when faith was all that was left. I can relate to that.
I am finishing up reading the book of Deuteronomy and I have to say, it is my favorite book of the Old Testament so far. I have highlighted so much of it that my pages are mostly pink now. The words are Moses’ last sermons before he died, stressing the importance of God’s Word. Although as Christians we are not under the law of the Old Testament, the words are reminders of our responsibility of obedience to God’s will. They are reminders of His faithfulness, holiness, blessings, and warnings. I am a student always learning, not a teacher. I researched this book in more depth and I read that this book was Jesus’ favorite as well and this does not surprise me. He quoted from it many times.
The reason I feel close to these words is because of my years of drifting away from God. I have had more than a few Ah ha moments lately. I know that things I did in my past were wrong and I have suffered many consequences as a result. But just because I messed up, doesn’t make me a mess. God is faithful, forgiving, and He is always there for me. Deuteronomy 31:8 “The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave nor forsake you. Do not be afraid, do not be discouraged.”
I went through a very long period of my life where I didn’t really believe God loved me. He allowed a lot of bad stuff to happen beyond my control. And as a result I forced a lot of other bad stuff to happen on my own. I had my own plans. I think I wrote about this a few days ago but this is where I am in my journey right now…realizing how off I was in so many ways. I had my own agenda but it just didn’t work out. Now I have plan B. And I actually do have that written on a Post It note on my wall in my office.
I love the Anna Beam quote from the movie so much. “They’ll get there when they get there.” Yes, they will.
Faith in God changes everything…
Blessings,
Stacey ~ iamalive